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thrihyrneLife is good. Last week was phenomenal, and as of this week I had a follow up meeting with the Executive Director of this community health center and they're going to hire me on as a consultant to do at least the first phase of my proposal to help them with their database or lack thereof and a fee of $x0 an hour. To be paid much closer to what I feel I'm worth per hour in a work environment has really done amazing things for my psyche. I feel so fucking competent, pardon my language. My original fic writing is going well, knitting is great, the Furious Flower director has a new project and wants me to stay here forever. Even the bill I got yesterday from my last hospital stint was taken care of because I had 100% financial assistance at the time, so they cleared out the remaining balance.
In the past, so much good stuff all at once usually meant that a rather traumatizing crash and burn occurred shortly thereafter. However, I don't see that happening this time. Maybe it's the Abilify, maybe being with my parents, maybe the willingness to not go to the place where I think the gods are looking down on me and are going to throw something really terrible my way as the payment for these positive things. I'm trying not to go there in my head, at any rate. Instead I think I've become a bit oddly superstitious. I mentioned that I'd felt I'd gotten in touch with some Guardians who had kept me from serious harm during my scary few days in February, and I'd come up with a gesture to not really invoke them, but much as making the symbol of the cross (or other symbols) is an act of invocation, or protection, or something, the gesture I have is for them. Perhaps it's because I'm so exceedingly grateful that so many things are going well, but I do make that symbol a couple of times a day. Maybe that's not so weird. It's a ritual, if a tee-tiny one.
So, off to beta and then walk the dog and later is Pilates with my mom and then knitting and watching Project Catwalk. Heh. I found the U.K. clone of Project Runway, woo hoo!!
In the past, so much good stuff all at once usually meant that a rather traumatizing crash and burn occurred shortly thereafter. However, I don't see that happening this time. Maybe it's the Abilify, maybe being with my parents, maybe the willingness to not go to the place where I think the gods are looking down on me and are going to throw something really terrible my way as the payment for these positive things. I'm trying not to go there in my head, at any rate. Instead I think I've become a bit oddly superstitious. I mentioned that I'd felt I'd gotten in touch with some Guardians who had kept me from serious harm during my scary few days in February, and I'd come up with a gesture to not really invoke them, but much as making the symbol of the cross (or other symbols) is an act of invocation, or protection, or something, the gesture I have is for them. Perhaps it's because I'm so exceedingly grateful that so many things are going well, but I do make that symbol a couple of times a day. Maybe that's not so weird. It's a ritual, if a tee-tiny one.
So, off to beta and then walk the dog and later is Pilates with my mom and then knitting and watching Project Catwalk. Heh. I found the U.K. clone of Project Runway, woo hoo!!
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Date: 2010-04-28 09:55 pm (UTC)