More dratted self-awareness, and I caved and got an IJ.

[thrihyrne]

I really hadn't realized quite how much I depend on LJ to keep up with you all until so many people (myself included) found themselves in this state of shock, whether due to LJ in particular or post-DH recovery or particular ugliness that went down that affected some of my friends quite personally. I miss reading your guys' thoughts! RL, the fics you're working on, whether you're suffering malaise or things are going well... rants and/or gushing, or quiet contemplation, I simply hadn't recognized that I look for you all here. I can walk away, of course; there's actual mail through the postal service, which I love to write (and receive!), there's email, phone calls, and visits. That being said, I caved. I now have an insane journal, mostly for the sheer ability to be thevina. I mean, I like Thrihyrne, actually, but until you've typed it out 3,281,754 times, it can be a challenge. Pronunciation is a bit awkward, too. And everybody knows me as Thevina or Thev. Still, don't look for anything here anytime soon, or ever. If absolutely everyone on my flist, or closely thereof, goes, well, I guess I will too. Really, though, I'm here. My stuff is here, my history is here, and while I'm not keen on LJ's changing ToS, I doubt I'd be singled out.

Had a productive weekend; sang a couple of anthems as part of a quartet for a choir friend's daughter's wedding on Saturday, wrote on both H/R and a fair bit on this next/last Magic Immunity, wrote some long emails and some written correspondence, did my handwashing (oh yes, my exotic life, lol), had a long talk with wolfiekins, and even got some sleep. Didn't write any on the original fic, but even I really can't do it all.

I have found myself much more in a place of acceptance about things of late; I had a hell of a lot of anger to wade through, and I'm not taking off my Wellies yet. I've also realized that I've gone through some pretty bleak psychological territory and that it's probably okay to acknowledge that deeply ingrained thought patterns aren't simply going to change because I will them to do so. I'll actually have to do some things differently in order to get some new neurological pathways going. Funny how that is.

I'm writing this interesting set 'o vignettes per CallumJames' request, but I've not reread OotP recently and don't own a copy (yes, bad, I know). If there's someone about who's recently reread it, I'd love your thoughts on a short scene to make sure that I'm even remotely "there" in regards to Harry's commentary and feelings. OotP is still the book I know the best, but I was reading it whie being George-centric, and I ignored Harry's stuff. So if any of you are bored...

I must also plug this post by Callum James, friend and taented writer. He wrote an extended post on his thought processes and the structural/esoteric evolution of the poem he's working on, including pictures of his notebook that show the strikethroughs, the arrows and consideration of various types of meter, and the 'voice' of the author of the poem, etc. I thought it was really insightful, and a treat to be privy to someone else's creative process.

Comments

[stuckinsea.livejournal.com]

I'm caving with you, Thev. At least for a bit. LJ will still be the main hub, but until then I'm going to make a IJ and add ya.

Hmmm. OOTP? Questions, concerns? I'm actually reading it with my friend Lauren, she's a new HP jumkie and so I've been supporting her journey, so anything you need help with let me know.

Miss you tons!

MWAH!

[thrihyrne.livejournal.com]

Thanks loads for your comments about the H/R. They've really helped. And now I've imported my friends list to IJ, but aside from maybe changing the layout to something a bit less hideous, I'm not going to post there. Urg. I hate this fandom weirdness.